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On school and diseases

2015-08-30 19:05:09 by AlixBalica

Yo sup guys, how's it going?

Enjoying school? Recently got into college or highschool? It must be hell.

3rd semester is absolute hell even though this new school is nice. I haven't had much rest and I recently caught the flu. 

Well, I just gotta update you on a few stuff; thanks to the better teachers here I might take animation classes and that means my first full-lenght animation might happen soon! Artblock and writter's block has caught me, though. You might not see much content here lately, but I promise I'll update at least once a month.

Stay cool

Hey guys, how's it going?

I can see you liked Knobby, to be honest I'm starting to like him too, you might see him often from now on.

But this entry is more or less to vent about this little wound left in my heart after breaking up with the girl of my dreams.

You see, recently my friend made me realize she pity-dated me. She never loved me, even though I loved her with every ounce of my entire being.

It hurt to accept the fact, while I was literally fighting my inner demons to make her happy and she just, grabbed that sacrifice, spat and stomped on it then blamed me for 'not helping her help me'

I loved her, I still do, but she broke my trust, she broke my heart, she broke my very soul and that wound will never, ever heal.

If you're out there and you're pity-dating someone; STOP.

You think you're doing us a favor, but in fact you're harming us more than doing any good. We love with such burning passion the love never fades away. It's better to be firm and say 'I do not feel the same, but I can be your friend'.

The friendzone is pure and utter bullshit made by creepy neckbeards that can't get laid. It's better to be a friend that lends a hand than being a fake lover that wouldn't even more a finger when we're about to fall into the abyss.

And today, I feel loved. My crush from 2 years accepted my feelings and gave me love back and I'm more than happy to love and feel loved; but this wound can't be healed, not even by the most passionate lover in the world.

You hurt me in a way that broke my whole being, and I forgive you for that. But I won't forgive you for destroying my ability to trust people like I trusted you.

On home and crotchy friends

2015-07-14 01:36:58 by AlixBalica

Yo sup guys.

I'm finally home, I really enjoyed the place and I've got to say; the couch of the hotel was better than my god damned bed.

I missed my cats and my tablet, had so much stuff to draw but my old touchscreen laptop didn't give me the pen pressure I needed.

To end with this short af post I've got something to say:

I'm sorry Team Reptile for making a robot out of Doombox's knob penis. It wasn't my intention to turn him into a meme.

On vacations and self-hatred

2015-07-10 06:27:27 by AlixBalica

Hey guys sup.

Seems like today in some hours I'm leaving to some quiet place in the forest as a well deserved vacation; there's a hot tub, fireplace, just fancy shit man I'm not used to that. Problems are still going and in fact, my two biggest fucking problems called Hat and Eli are joining me. God fucking bless hallucinations.

I'll try to stay calm, not let those two drive me insane. The place is nice, the trip will be quiet and food is specially delicious there so yay!

Oh, self-hatred? Yeah, well first of all because I can't participate on Robot Day (fuck!) and it's 5am and I need to be up early to get ready for the trip. (Not to mention my socks and my favorite jeans are still wet, never procrastinate laundry, kids!)

And also this thing I've been working on this night, I'm not used to all this painting shit. Ever played Lethal League? It's the shit.



On gay marriage and Mexico

2015-06-27 06:46:29 by AlixBalica

Sup guys, just found out gay marriage was legalized in the USA, congratulations! Though, the fight is not over yet and homophobia still exists (Along with all the hate towards the LGBTQIA+ community).

I have to remind you guys I am part of the community (Good luck trying to find out what am I) and trust me, it is a huge pride to say Mexico made legal gay marriage nation-wide a month or so ago. Though the amounts of hate crimes still dissapoint me.

For the rest of the month, I'll use a gay flag themed icon as a celebration for my friends who can finally get married.

Stay cool.

On school and work

2015-06-14 18:11:33 by AlixBalica

Hey guys, how's it going?

Turns out I'll have to drop out for half a year or so, I failed 4 subjects already and that's a huge hell-fucking-no for my father. This kinda sucks. It doesn't help the fact that this new guy, called Eli, is bothering me and trying to get me to hang myself (If you're wondering, he's an hallucination).

But on the bright side, I was offered a job near my school in a coffee shop, I have experience handling coffee machines and baking goods so yeah, I think it's luck! But the bad thing is my father doesn't want me to get a job (wtf am I going to do in half a year of doing nothing?!). Life sucks y'know.

There's no new art, only sketches and vent art on 3lsens, I'll have you know I'm open for requests if you want me to draw stuff.

See ya later.

How's everyone doing? I bet finals are killing us, huh?

Well, things is; I already have hallucinations, yay! (sarcasm) BUT! I've been drawing stuff that you can find here 'cause none of that shit's worth uploading here.

What about the suggestive thing? You ask as you're ready to get a hold of your dick.

It's up there, sitting on my page if you wanna check. Not too much and I'm honestly sorry if The Behemoth gets to see that and other stuff I post on Tumblr (sins, lots of fucking sins)

In other news I'll post concept art of a comic I'm working on with a friend of mine. I'll try to translate it as best as I can (From Spanish to English ya see). Stay tuned and for god's sake get some fucking sleep you guys.

Hey guys happy Pico Day! (belated of course)

2015-04-27 00:45:18 by AlixBalica

I haven't been active lately so I'll update you on how this trainwreck called my life is going:

Grades are better

Mood is better (god bless antidepressives!)

Art's improving

Got over my breakup

Just everything's going a bit better, but my kidneys are literally killing me (TMI; Thought pissing blood was a rockstar and old people's thing)

Sorry I wasn't here for Pico Day, but I'm preparing myself for next year, I really wanna do something big!

20 years of NewGrounds, holy shit! Congratulations!!

EDIT: In other news, I'll upload some new art. All of it is in my tumblr (3lsens), so if ya wanna check it out the link's there



I'm up for whooping asses at Battleblock Theater and Don't Starve (Why not at Castle Crashers? 'Cause I'm still a noob)

My girlfriend and I broke up today.

It was mostly my fault, actually it was my fault entirely. I was so devastated I actually was thinking about giving in and attempting suicide again, I felt nauseous all day and I couldn't stop crying like a baby, right now my eyes are so sore and red like I just blazed it and I feel like my head is going to explode 'cause of how much I cried an hour ago.

I love her, I will always love her, but I guess I'm just not made for relationships.

I mean, most of my relationships ended up on me having a breakdown (except my relationship with my now best bro, I was relieved that hell was over), I can't see myself getting married or having children.

Some friends say 'best luck next time' but I doubt there'll be a next time, not because I'm acting all emo like 'love sux :'((((((' Nah man, I just can't make things work out between someone else and me, and I'm totally okay with that. I don't have to get married or have children, there's other kinds of love besides romantic. Friends are cool, comittment and children are not.

And no girlfriend/boyfriend/datemate=more money/more time. I enjoy mostly being alone chatting with friends than going around trying to please someone and watching what I say or what I do.

I'm not saying love sucks; I'm saying, in my experience, relationships are not for everyone. And that's more than OK.

I guess I'm aromantic! And I'm more than happy to be!

((Just to be clear, my disorder is such a bitch it's not letting me get over it, I'm feeling kinda ok right now but deep inside I wish I die in my sleep. Take your medication, children!))