Hey guys sup.

Seems like today in some hours I'm leaving to some quiet place in the forest as a well deserved vacation; there's a hot tub, fireplace, just fancy shit man I'm not used to that. Problems are still going and in fact, my two biggest fucking problems called Hat and Eli are joining me. God fucking bless hallucinations.

I'll try to stay calm, not let those two drive me insane. The place is nice, the trip will be quiet and food is specially delicious there so yay!

Oh, self-hatred? Yeah, well first of all because I can't participate on Robot Day (fuck!) and it's 5am and I need to be up early to get ready for the trip. (Not to mention my socks and my favorite jeans are still wet, never procrastinate laundry, kids!)

And also this thing I've been working on this night, I'm not used to all this painting shit. Ever played Lethal League? It's the shit.

Sup guys, just found out gay marriage was legalized in the USA, congratulations! Though, the fight is not over yet and homophobia still exists (Along with all the hate towards the LGBTQIA+ community).

I have to remind you guys I am part of the community (Good luck trying to find out what am I) and trust me, it is a huge pride to say Mexico made legal gay marriage nation-wide a month or so ago. Though the amounts of hate crimes still dissapoint me.

For the rest of the month, I'll use a gay flag themed icon as a celebration for my friends who can finally get married.

Stay cool.

Hey guys, how's it going?

Turns out I'll have to drop out for half a year or so, I failed 4 subjects already and that's a huge hell-fucking-no for my father. This kinda sucks. It doesn't help the fact that this new guy, called Eli, is bothering me and trying to get me to hang myself (If you're wondering, he's an hallucination).

But on the bright side, I was offered a job near my school in a coffee shop, I have experience handling coffee machines and baking goods so yeah, I think it's luck! But the bad thing is my father doesn't want me to get a job (wtf am I going to do in half a year of doing nothing?!). Life sucks y'know.

There's no new art, only sketches and vent art on 3lsens, I'll have you know I'm open for requests if you want me to draw stuff.

See ya later.

How's everyone doing? I bet finals are killing us, huh?

Well, things is; I already have hallucinations, yay! (sarcasm) BUT! I've been drawing stuff that you can find here 'cause none of that shit's worth uploading here.

What about the suggestive thing? You ask as you're ready to get a hold of your dick.

It's up there, sitting on my page if you wanna check. Not too much and I'm honestly sorry if The Behemoth gets to see that and other stuff I post on Tumblr (sins, lots of fucking sins)

In other news I'll post concept art of a comic I'm working on with a friend of mine. I'll try to translate it as best as I can (From Spanish to English ya see). Stay tuned and for god's sake get some fucking sleep you guys.

I haven't been active lately so I'll update you on how this trainwreck called my life is going:

Grades are better

Mood is better (god bless antidepressives!)

Art's improving

Got over my breakup

Just everything's going a bit better, but my kidneys are literally killing me (TMI; Thought pissing blood was a rockstar and old people's thing)

Sorry I wasn't here for Pico Day, but I'm preparing myself for next year, I really wanna do something big!

20 years of NewGrounds, holy shit! Congratulations!!

EDIT: In other news, I'll upload some new art. All of it is in my tumblr (3lsens), so if ya wanna check it out the link's there

I'm up for whooping asses at Battleblock Theater and Don't Starve (Why not at Castle Crashers? 'Cause I'm still a noob)

My girlfriend and I broke up today.

It was mostly my fault, actually it was my fault entirely. I was so devastated I actually was thinking about giving in and attempting suicide again, I felt nauseous all day and I couldn't stop crying like a baby, right now my eyes are so sore and red like I just blazed it and I feel like my head is going to explode 'cause of how much I cried an hour ago.

I love her, I will always love her, but I guess I'm just not made for relationships.

I mean, most of my relationships ended up on me having a breakdown (except my relationship with my now best bro, I was relieved that hell was over), I can't see myself getting married or having children.

Some friends say 'best luck next time' but I doubt there'll be a next time, not because I'm acting all emo like 'love sux :'((((((' Nah man, I just can't make things work out between someone else and me, and I'm totally okay with that. I don't have to get married or have children, there's other kinds of love besides romantic. Friends are cool, comittment and children are not.

And no girlfriend/boyfriend/datemate=more money/more time. I enjoy mostly being alone chatting with friends than going around trying to please someone and watching what I say or what I do.

I'm not saying love sucks; I'm saying, in my experience, relationships are not for everyone. And that's more than OK.

I guess I'm aromantic! And I'm more than happy to be!

((Just to be clear, my disorder is such a bitch it's not letting me get over it, I'm feeling kinda ok right now but deep inside I wish I die in my sleep. Take your medication, children!))

God damn my best friend, as we both enjoy going all like 'hey what if X character fucked Y character?' followed by drawing those characters fucking.

Recently our subjects have been Hatty and the prisoners from Battleblock Theater, though my beginnings as a NSFW artist is given in the OFF by Mortis Ghost fandom and I gotta say,

The amount of things we have drawn are incredibly unholy and not even going to church daily will give me a place in Heaven.

Embrace me, Satan, for I have drawn characters doing the most unholy things with eachother.

(PD: I don't do NSFW requests or comissions, I just draw it for fun and it's completely private)

OH! Before I forget! Mx. B suggests you, fellow smut artist, not to use slurs towards LGBTQA+ people in your works and always, fucking always use references and research a bit before drawing/writing 'cause holy shit I'm hella tired of reading fanfictions where the characters use countless unsanitary stuff as lube and some smut visual artists draw chicks incredibly unproportional and the tits look literally like baloons. Like srsly bruh.

AB out.

...it makes sure to hit you hard with them.

I know it's tiresome every time I post it's all ranting, but hey no one follows me here so no one close to me has to worry!

Anyways, today when I was at school we had to be evacuated 'cause of a gas leak. That made me have an anxiety attack (but oh boy it saved us from a math exam!).

When my father goes to pick me up he tells me my grandma (who's incredibly sick) had to be hospitalized urgently.

Then I try to show my girlfriend an episode I love from Whatever Happened To... Robot Jones, not two minutes later she goes batshit crazy about Steven Universe's new episode (AKA she didn't care about my message+spoilers of an episode that won't come out in Latin America any time soon)

Last thing, some hours ago I went to visit my grandma. Then the nurses tell us THEY FUCKING LOST HER.

They didn't know where she was, they knew she was very ill and needed attention, but they didn't remember where'd they put her bed.

An hour later they find her, though they lost a CD where they had ALL THE INFO the doctors got from analysis. They told us she might be relapsing from some heart+lung disease she has so it's pretty bad.

THEN, when I finally get home I get messages from my girlfriend ranting that she's feeling pushed aside by her best friend and another friend. Funny because she actually pushed me aside by her best friend and that friend.

AND, to finish this clusterfuck of pity; it's almost April. AKA one year since I first attempted suicide.

This is all bullshit, but hey! At least I didn't have to do a math exam!

Stupid ill brain.

...Your mouth is bleeding way too much:

• DO NOT FUCKING SWALLOW YOUR OWN BLOOD, MOTHERFUCK.
  Okay no but seriously, this could cause you nausea (and vomit) and eventually some blood disease if you drink way too much of your own blood for some time.
• Put some cotton on the wound.
  Sounds dumb but it works, make sure to change it every 2 hours or you will get a nasty infection
• For the love of god don't suck too hard.
  Even if you really wanna suck dick. Wait until you're fully healed, you don't want to snap any sutures and cause more bleeding and excessive pain, do you?
• Don't force yourself.
  This could also snap your sutures and cause more bleeding (and pain), at this point you'd be sick of tasting blood.
• Avoid fatty food
  That includes nasty McDonalds, junk food, red meat, fried stuff, anything that's got too much fat. You will cause an infection in the wound.

I'm a dumb kid, I know these from experience.