Hey guys, how's it going?

I can see you liked Knobby, to be honest I'm starting to like him too, you might see him often from now on.

But this entry is more or less to vent about this little wound left in my heart after breaking up with the girl of my dreams.

You see, recently my friend made me realize she pity-dated me. She never loved me, even though I loved her with every ounce of my entire being.

It hurt to accept the fact, while I was literally fighting my inner demons to make her happy and she just, grabbed that sacrifice, spat and stomped on it then blamed me for 'not helping her help me'

I loved her, I still do, but she broke my trust, she broke my heart, she broke my very soul and that wound will never, ever heal.

If you're out there and you're pity-dating someone; STOP.

You think you're doing us a favor, but in fact you're harming us more than doing any good. We love with such burning passion the love never fades away. It's better to be firm and say 'I do not feel the same, but I can be your friend'.

The friendzone is pure and utter bullshit made by creepy neckbeards that can't get laid. It's better to be a friend that lends a hand than being a fake lover that wouldn't even more a finger when we're about to fall into the abyss.

And today, I feel loved. My crush from 2 years accepted my feelings and gave me love back and I'm more than happy to love and feel loved; but this wound can't be healed, not even by the most passionate lover in the world.

You hurt me in a way that broke my whole being, and I forgive you for that. But I won't forgive you for destroying my ability to trust people like I trusted you.