AlixBalica's News

On wasting oportunities

2016-06-18 06:08:29 by AlixBalica

After my suicide attempt 2 months ago with at least 10 kinds of meds I've hit another kind of rock bottom.

At first I felt so much hope, I was reborn and shit like that. Then loneliness hit me, my hallucinations got worse, I started getting more and more reclusive after realizing no one really would've realized if I died that day, I started getting so violent to the point of snapping on a daily basis against my classmates, teachers and my father. Speaking of my father, our fights have been more and more violent to the point of going from verbal abuse to physical fighting.

My grades dropped greatly; I failed English for the first time, I failed or dropped grades on all exams, got an absolute zero on P.E., all I do is sleep in class for god's sake.

You know what? What I did 2 months ago was for sissies. If I had the oportunity, I would've jumped off the school's roof. But I guess I waited too long.

Probably the next months I'll get the courage to pay the highway a visit.

Love yourselves, you don't wanna live through this hell.


The Orlando shooting

2016-06-12 19:47:56 by AlixBalica

Ever since I woke up and read the news I got through text message, I've been in shock and felt pure horror.

Not only this was a mass shooting, but it was against the LGBTQA+ community.

As a member myself I couldn't help but feel hopelessness, sadness, anger, impotency since I'm on the other side of the river. And the many, many hateful words towards the victims AND the muslim community made it all worse.

Hate really is a powerful gun. A single fucked up man took the lives of 50 people and managed to injure +50 more. Why? Because he couldn't. Fucking. Handle. Seeing people. Love eachother.

I'm not religious, but my prayers go towards the families of the victims and the victims themselves. I might be told to shut up, called homophobic/transphobic names, that it was justified, etc. but the truth is out there and it's horrifiying how people like me can be murdered by just being who I am and not being afraid to love.

Pray for the victims, and pray for the muslim community too. Who knows what will Americans do just to blame innocent people...


Work in Progress for Pico Day

2016-05-04 22:49:04 by AlixBalica

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Since I don't have school tomorrow, I'll spend all day trying to complete this shit for the 7th.

This is my first time animating something in Flash. And my first time animating something fully!


Dandelion is here!

2016-05-01 20:10:09 by AlixBalica

After some problems, I decided to move the comic to a blog on tumblr.

The first and second pages have been released! Go check them out!

http://dandelion-the-comic.tumblr.com/

 


On my Webcomic

2016-04-29 22:07:19 by AlixBalica

That's right, ladies, gentlemen and everyone in-between!

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Dandelion, the webcomic I've been planning for years now has a release date!

This comic takes place in a 'new' planet called Rho-50, inhabited by plant people called Asters. 

Recently corrupted by human kind, the Asters have been punished by their gods for their sins and it's up to Iris, a child Aster, and her crew to find their god and rescue their kin from extintion.

May 1st, don't miss it!


Homestuck is ending

2016-04-12 22:53:01 by AlixBalica

I have a lot of mixed emotions. I'm happy yet sad.

I mean it's been 4 years since I started reading Homestuck and Andrew Hussie inspired me to draw more and pursuit my dream as an animator/comic artist.

Tonight is going to be a very emotional night.


On matters of the heart

2016-04-05 22:37:25 by AlixBalica

I have to admit this is getting old, but some way or another I have to let all this out.

Ever since I pushed all my friends away after learning the person I've been in love with decided that they've been in love with a person they've only known almost a year.

Every time I see them together I feel like throwing up. I feel anger, sadness, jealousy, remorse. I feel bitter.

I can't socialize properly anymore. The most minimal display of affection towards others or even towards me sickens me. Or hell it even scares me.

Things have been going horribly at home; my father is going back to be manipulative and aggressive and nothing I do works anymore. I have found myself crying like a baby because of how he treats me.

My so called friends have been using my rants to make fun of me (yes, even the ones about my suicide attempts. Aparently they think me almost dying is funny), I can't trust no one but a bunch of strangers in a website.

I don't know what I might do at this point.

It's no surprise that all this is happening on April. Three years ago I attempted suicide for the first time, and it was on April.

I know I've been saying this ever since, but I don't really think I will make it past this year.

I might pay the highway a visit next time my father has to leave for the entire day.



I'm making something NewGrounds exclusive, feel special 'cause I ain't posting this fucker on tumblr or facebook or twitter or natter

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On April Fools

2016-04-02 13:28:22 by AlixBalica

I literally didn't bother on looking for a reference for that painting I did of Donald Dump because I despise that man a whole lot.

Eh, wish it was a better day, but hey! We can do a bit better next year



im like so sorry guys but mr trump is just right and i gotta leave ng bc im mexican and this site doesnt allow mexican ppl anymore :'((((((

i leave evrything 2 tom fulp goodbye every1