After my suicide attempt 2 months ago with at least 10 kinds of meds I've hit another kind of rock bottom.
At first I felt so much hope, I was reborn and shit like that. Then loneliness hit me, my hallucinations got worse, I started getting more and more reclusive after realizing no one really would've realized if I died that day, I started getting so violent to the point of snapping on a daily basis against my classmates, teachers and my father. Speaking of my father, our fights have been more and more violent to the point of going from verbal abuse to physical fighting.
My grades dropped greatly; I failed English for the first time, I failed or dropped grades on all exams, got an absolute zero on P.E., all I do is sleep in class for god's sake.
You know what? What I did 2 months ago was for sissies. If I had the oportunity, I would've jumped off the school's roof. But I guess I waited too long.
Probably the next months I'll get the courage to pay the highway a visit.
Love yourselves, you don't wanna live through this hell.
DiamondEclipse
Well, you'll be a sociopath at age of 22-25, can't really tell the date, but it will end up of you running away from your family and living on your own. Next point is when you will start hurting other people because you don't like them or they said something you don't like
At that moment you will lose composure and you will still have these suicidal thoughts, to that moment someone will want you to send you to the asylum, it might be your friends, your father or strangers
It now depends on your actions
AlixBalica
That's pretty much what will happen. But hey! Luckily I'm sick and poor so I won't last long to be that old, so that's a pro.
Wish I could do something for people in my position though, but I guess my father was right; a blind dude can't guide another blind dude.